Sue Finch

BADGER POEMS, METAL SPOONS, AND GENTLE NODS

This morning I stand under three aeroplane contrails to breathe the freshness of the air. The birds are singing the verses that come after dawn chorus, and somewhere far above me there are astronauts in darkness of the moon.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a bottle of pills and a red envelope. I say it is a pill bottle from the Poetry Pharmacy and that the theme for this particular bottle is ‘Badgered’. I also say I am delighted to see my words unfurled from two of the capsules in this selection. I have been a fan of these ‘prescriptions’ for quite some time and love the variety of bottles on offer so it feels particularly cool to have words included.

This week I was dithering about which poem to record for Poem of the Month for my YouTube channel. Fortunately, April Fool’s Day gave me a much-needed inspirational nudge when Matthew MC Smith put out a pretend call for poems about spoons.

As mentioned in my blog in March 2024, a fever that accompanied a virus back then triggered a dream about me turning into a metal spoon and needing to be plucked back from the centre of the earth. This poem had been lingering in my drafts folder since then and so it seemed like a good time to give it a polish and send it into the world. It was also timely in that I had listened on the same day to the Coach Write podcast conversation I had with Helen O’Neill. In that conversation I talked about the importance of reading poetry aloud during the editing process. This reminded me to begin my editing with this strategy, and I am glad I did because what seemed to work on the page sounded clunky and wrong-ordered when read out loud. As a dream inspired poem about spoons I think it now holds its space in the world, and although I was given the wise advice not to count the likes I did chuckle that there was a moment in time when the poem had 1 view and 1 like giving it a temporary ‘100% of viewers like this poem’ rating. Here’s the link if you want to see if you like such things: THE NIGHT I TURNED TO METAL.

For this week’s blog poem I turn to Brock which was written during a poetry workshop with Clare Shaw and Miriam Darlington where the focus was badgers. Hence the picture I chose for this week’s main photograph. I loved the immersion in badger facts and finding out more about these wonderful creatures, and I loved the space in which to write these particular words.

I choose to share this poem again today even though it has been shared in my blog before because for me it has a gentle nod to my lovely Dad who died peacefully just after midnight on 6^th April 2025 and today it feels strange to think that a year has passed since this happened. He is worth all the gentle nods.

BROCK

In the dark of night

the silvered wisdom of a badger’s soul

lifts from its body,

rises above that final puff of breath,

leaves behind white bristles and black fur.

On the cusp of day,

in the silence between dust and sparkle,

the echoes are beginning.

Be steady along familiar routes,

mark out your path.

Be the shy, tenacious forager,

know the quiet of nature.

A TRIP TO LONDON TOWN

This morning the air brings me the notes of new carpet off gassing in a Premier Inn and mixes in essence of chilled seaside town air. A soundtrack of traffic plays like urban waves in the background.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a person holding a book in front of a bookcase. I say it is me visiting the National Poetry Library in London and not being able to resist a photo with my second full collection of poetry Welcome to the Museum of a Life published by Black Eyes Publishing UK. I also say this feels particularly apt given that I am a guest on Helen O’Neill’s Coach Write podcast this week. We had a wonderful chat about coaching, poetry and the journey to having books in the world, and it felt good to be a guest. I like listening to people talk on podcasts and I like being asked to talk too. It also makes me chuckle that the episode will air on the first of April!

The main focus of the visit to London was seeing the Manic Street Preachers headlining at The Royal Albert Hall for Teenage Cancer Trust. It was a fantastic concert opening with Motorcycle Emptiness and ending under a raining down of confetti during If You Tolerate This. That opening song was a moment of absolute tingle for me as I realised I was standing in the now, watching the band perform live, while also watching the original music video from all those years ago projected onto the screen behind them. A wonderful mingling of right now and back then. There was something beautifully pure about this. Later on I felt myself held still during the wonderful performance of This Is Yesterday which is one of my absolute favourite songs, and I don’t think I moved a muscle. There was plenty of time for movement during the set and I loved being surrounded by the energy of others in the crowd, but I do also love the parts where I am standing in the moment relishing the experience.

On the return train journey the following day lines from Roses In The Hospital came to mind when I had my first experience of a rail replacement bus service. If you don’t know that song the words “forever delayed” are repeated! I saw parts of Medway I had never seen before as the coaches we boarded wiggled their way from Gillingham visiting all the stations that the train would have stopped at during what felt like a pretty busy rush hour. Overall I enjoyed revisiting journeys by trains, but am not sure I would have been quite so chilled about the delayed parts if I had been on my own or if I had been timetabled to be at my destination at a specific time!

It was good to get my steps in in the big city and to see the sights. I enjoyed seeing people taking photos of themselves on bridges and with landmarks. I also noticed a particular street where people were pausing by red phone boxes and posing for photographs. Thinking about this and having all those Manic Street Preachers songs echoing in my head brings this poem from my first collection Magnifying Glass to mind…

Phoning Richey Edwards

no landline, no mobile, the call was made from a phone box

Stagnant air moved as I entered

disturbing sour nicotine, old urine.

Dampened cigarette ends lay split open

orange tobacco strands twisting out

like untidy moustache hairs.

Pockets loaded with coins I was ready.

Above staleness another smell rose;

the shelved phonebook, its pages thumbed and flicked.

I was ringing to say happy birthday,

he was called to the phone
as if he might know who I was.

We spoke, but I can’t recall the words.
I have an echo of a gentle lilt
that floats across my mind from time to time.

I called; we spoke.
I wish I had the words.

A DAFFODILESQUE DALEK, THE FIRST MOW, AND THE MUSE

This morning the air mingles the scent of warm Premier Inn and fresh grass into a cloudy mix.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a yellow flower in the grass. I say it is my shadow featuring a midforehead daffodil. I also say I was rather hoping to create a daffodilesque dalek photo. I guess it is distinctly unlikely that alt text would come up with that description even if the photo was on point, but perhaps I also didn’t pull it off quite as I had planned. It was fun though and it was taken during my daffodil noticing/clear my head/have a think walk one sunny morning last week.

Jobs have been calling to me this week… “Look, the sun’s shining, if you clean me you can hang the washing out.” was the cry from the washing line.“You feel better with a haircut – what about us?” the mini lawns were imploring.

And at the same time my energy levels were feeling a little depleted, so rebalancing has been an important thing to focus on as well as remembering how motivating it is to get the jobs done rather than carrying the thought of them around in my head whilst trying to concentrate on something else. I reminded myself that I could always use my trick of timing myself to do a job like I did when I wasn’t sure I could persuade myself that cleaning the windows was going to fit into my day. But these jobs were different and the joy was always going to be in the end result and the fact they lead so nicely into the welcoming of the season of spring. (I still like the moment of personal development that came about after timing myself to clean the windows… this being that my ultimate motivation is to complete the task shortly after sunrise whilst wearing my pyjamas.)

Pleasingly Claire Pedrick’s second edition of Simplifying Coaching was out on Monday and I knew that this would be an informative and restorative read to slot into my week. Two early morning reading slots and one I want to finish this tonight slot and I had read the book from cover to cover and thoroughly enjoyed it. It is an excellent read for all coaches and a wonderful build on the first version which was already a favourite coaching book for me. Highly recommended to all coaches. I also love the fact that there is a little quote from me in the book…how cool is that?

There’s been a good sprinkling of words in my week all round because as well as reading I have been writing. One of my favourite ways to write poetry is when there is a compelling feeling of being pulled to set something down. This week my sister was my muse. We had been talking on the phone and after telling me something she hadn’t told me before she said it would make a good poem if I wanted to write it. I pondered on what she had said on one of my walks and came back with a pretty much fully formed poem. I remembered to leave it to rest overnight as well as read it out loud to check it sounded right before editing it and smoothing its edges. Then I recorded it as a voice note and sent it to her. We both agree that is has something special about it so I am hoping it will find a home in the not-too-distant future.

This week I choose to share a poem that was written to set down a moment in time when something shiny caught my eye in a supermarket car park in Canterbury.

THE BALL BEARING

The shine and the surprise of it

rolled to a stop in a gravel dip

in a wet car park.

Almost a marble from my childhood;

a mini, silvered moon

cratered and old.

Glimpsing it made us smile

and you knew

I wanted to hold the heaviness of it.

STUNT GIRL

This morning the air is delightfully fresh. I sense spring and I feel the contrast of what I breathe this morning with the city air I breathed at the weekend. It is wonderfully refreshing to stand still in the new day.

Alt text says this week’s photo shows a person smiling holding a book. It does indeed! And it is me, wearing a Stunt Girl t-shirt, holding a copy of Safety in Numbers.

Once when wearing this t-shirt I was asked by a stranger what my stunts were. I answered with, “I eat fire whilst unicycling.” This had them leaning in with, “Really?” before we both stood in a moment of disappointment as I admitted that this was in fact an untruth. This interaction, and the fact that I have also been asked if I am a trapeze artist, came to mind when I was writing the poem that I would submit to the Safety In Numbers project.

Each of the poets involved in the project, which was designed by Gill Connors, was sent a poem as part of a chain and asked to write a poem in response to it. I remember being excited when I saw that a poem had arrived in my inbox. I purposefully did not open the email until I had time to be at my writing desk with a dedicated time to think and write because I was keen to capture my response as cleanly as possible.

Firstly, I read the poem on the page in the same way that I read all poems that I am meeting for the first time. Then to increase my interaction and feel for the poem I read it out loud to myself. My usual way of starting the drafting of a poem when I know I am going to write is to use a fountain pen and a notebook. On this occasion I jotted down the parts of the received poem that resonated with me most strongly and let my mind take these thoughts for a walk. I found myself focussed on plate spinning, things imagined, and the passing of time. An idea began to emerge around the comments related to the t-shirt and the fact I had invented a persona that was beautifully fantastical.

Once I have ideas for a poem, I like to swap to typing into a word document so I can chop and change words and lines easily as the poem takes shape. Forming the whole on a clean page helps me think. I used this method to form a solid draft before rereading the poem I had received to find out if I could sense a link. I decided that I could, and that the evolution of a new poem from one read was happening naturally and in that sense, it was good to just go with it. After spending a little more time drafting and editing my work and reading it aloud, I left it alone overnight.

The next day when I returned to it I did my best to reread it with fresh eyes to spot any parts that did not flow or were in need of tightening. I wanted the person who I followed in the chain to be pleased with the response and to find something of interest in it. When reading my poem I could feel a thread that linked us, and yet the poem was definitely a Sue Finch poem that had been asking to be written. Pleasingly, I don’t think this poem would have emerged without me taking part in this project and I am very grateful to have been involved for that reason and because the whole set of linked poems is fascinating. Themes pop in and out in the different chains and that feels like a dance and a song all at once as you read.

Here’s Stunt Girl from the Yaffle Press anthology Safety In Numbers

Stunt Girl

She wore a t-shirt with that slogan.

Most people passed her by and said nothing.

But one day someone asked her

what her trick was. Her eyes sparkled

as she pictured all the circus acts she’d seen.

She knew she could throw axes,

yet her tendency for distraction might be fatal.

Wearing lycra to be fired out of a cannon

wouldn’t suit,

and her timing ruled her out

of the flying trapeze.

She wondered if she could tame a lion,

juggle five knives.

I eat fire whilst riding a unicycle, she replied.

She remembers vividly

the disappointment in their eyes

when they leant in for detail,

and she had to admit it wasn’t true.

I wear baggy trousers,

I’m a plate-spinning clown,

she thought to herself as her heart sank,

and I’ve been walking a tightrope all my life.

THIS MORNING, WOOD PIGEONS

This morning, wood pigeons are sounding their calls and I remember them heralding in the sunny days of my youth. The air carries definite hints of spring, and I call the scent raw floral as I am transported back to my time of harvesting daffodil bulbs. Last night’s mist has cleared and the day is beginning to be seen.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a group of books on a patterned surface. I say it is three elements of the post I received on Saturday. I also say it is an absolute delight (and indeed a rarity) to receive three wonderful things in the post on the same day. It also tied in well with my recent thoughts about surprise and anticipation. (More about the excellent book Safety In Numbers soon, but if you have read it or been to any of the launches so far you will know it is a thing of beauty. I heartily congratulate Gill Connors on bringing this book into the world.)

I’ll delve a bit into anticipation which is one of my favourite feelings. I’ll also clarify this by saying it’s the version of anticipation that involves looking forward to something rather than the anticipation of something that might go wrong. Positive anticipation is a wonderful fizzy kind of feeling for me, and I was thinking about it as a particular kind of joy recently, and sensing that something felt different about it. I realised that there doesn’t always need to be an extended period of anticipation now for it to feel exciting to me. It can be a plan made the night before or taking time to linger in the thought of what lies ahead in the day. I think I might have got better at seizing moments of anticipation.

Just when I was congratulating myself for what seemed to be a good step forward, I thought about something that often accompanies anticipation for me. And that is preparedness. I was thinking that this makes me a good travel companion because I tend to have things with me just in case. Spare sanitary towels? No problem. Need a painkiller? No problem. Got bitten by an insect? Here’s some bite cream. (The list goes on trust me!)

Which got me to thinking maybe those two feelings – anticipation and preparedness – are a perfect pairing. Perhaps I have got better at enjoying anticipation and am more ready for it because I am good at being prepared. I was ready to praise myself for the way the two things entwine when I remembered how heavy my overnight bag is. Possibly much heavier than it needs to be. This isn’t too bad when it gets taken straight from the car to the hotel, but I definitely notice it when I have to carry it that bit further. That moment when I change arms for the third time and the muscles still burn, and I wonder why I haven’t just brought one clean pair of pants and a toothbrush. I thought about changing my bag for one with wheels to combat the weight and then I got to wondering whether I could change my habits and pack more lightly.

There was something freeing about thinking of not carrying so much stuff. But that would mean letting go of some of the items that contribute to my preparedness, and I do like to be prepared. At this point I decided to look up the definition of preparedness, fully expecting my Google search to confirm it as a positive and sensible readiness. And yet there before my eyes were the words disaster, emergency, and risk. Those three words resonated more than I had anticipated!

Time to take some action, and in case you’re wondering how it’s going…so far I have removed two of the spare packets of tissues from my bag, halved the painkillers, ditched the tube of burn cream, decided to invest in a small rucksack for overnight stays, and booked a trip on a paddle steamer!

This poem, taken from my first collection Magnifying Glass, captures a moment in time of standing in anticipation of a childhood day that is unfolding.

CAPS IN HER GUN

She has the smell of thin, brown leather

in her nose,

a print of softness on its tip

from kissing Orinoco’s hat.

She has tucked up the toys in her bed,

wished herself a cowboy for the day.

Holster on, bandana tied, sheriff badge shining,

she stands tall, shoulders wide.

Caps in her gun,

ready to shoot.

BREATHING THE SCENTED AIR

This morning a chorus from herring gulls welcomed in the morning, and the wind is swirling and mixing the scents of flowers and green.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a person holding a drink and a plate of food. I say it is me enjoying a sit down in a café at Chester Zoo with a drink and a doughnut after visiting a range of animals including a gorgeous tapir that seemed pleased that I told it that I thought it was gorgeous.

The first of March brought sunshine and gifted the perfect day to walk round The Great Orme in Llandudno. There were plenty of fresh smells to delight the senses for my sister and I. After the foodie smells from the doughnuts and onions on the pier, we had the herby scent of grass and gorse mingling with the fresh sea air as we headed round the coastal edge. There was a moment of pure contrast when a strong smell of fish puffed up from the cove below us where we had stopped to watch the seals swimming in the water. We moved along a little when this one hit our noses! This was the first time we have walked whilst the tide has been in and covered the area of beach that we usually watch the seals on. It was lovely to see them swimming in pairs and curving their bodies in the water as well as the familiar sight of curious heads bobbed up through the waves.

My sister, Katie, said that when she comes to Wales she enjoys the fact that she experiences an extended range of smells. She reports that for her the scents in Kent often fall into the following four distinct categories:

Normal
Cold
Fresh
Fumy

She also reports that the water in St Winefride’s Well is cold, and well worth taking a paddle in. This was one of the highlights of her trip up this time and as well as drinking some well water she has a small bottle to take home with her. We are saving the full immersion experience for when the weather is a little warmer. It’s always good to have another trip to look forward to and although we know the water is unlikely to be much higher in temperature we will at least be coming out into warmer air.

Here’s to all the scents that are noticed and enjoyed this week, and here’s a seal poem I once wrote after watching for seals at The Little Orme…

SEAL AT ANGEL BAY

She sits on the cliff watching the water.

He is a rounded head buoyant in the centre.

Something on the air tumbled by the wind

interrupts him;

eyes and nostrils flick open

revealing stone-black depths.

Lines of sunlight silver the waves

diminishing her thoughts

of the iodine seaweed smell,

that mingling of fish and brine

that says he hunts the raw.

He is surveying the surface nonchalantly.

Soon he will be gone again;

under the waves

for long stitched-together minutes.

Tight solid fat turns to glistening grey.

She too stirs, as he curves into the thick water.

I SEE BLUE SKY

This morning the air holds the scent of green and unfurling. The birds are well awake when I step outside and are singing to each other of a new day to be in, seemingly unbothered by the wind.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a tree with no leaves. I say it is blue sky framing the branches of a tree, and that it delighted my heart to be walking under it.

After last weekend’s yarn show I set myself a catching up kind of a week. The kind where sparkly conversations with good friends featured amongst time to tackle admin type things and time to see if the poems that wait patiently in the draft folder are ready for polishing. The kind of week without a particular routine which allowed for resting and for seizing the moment when there was a gap in the rain to take a daily stroll.

It was good to get out for daily walks again after having recently had to wait for my cough to diminish. I felt my body easing its way back in to striding out and being glad for being out in the fresh air. I also realised how much I had missed listening to music for that dedicated segment of the day. My soul shines more fully when the right sounds are in the day. The country road route is currently muddy and wet, but I like its familiarity as I get back into the swing of things. The fact that walking this route takes as long as listening to the album Personal History by Mary Chapin Carpenter is also rather splendid.

It was good to have a free and easy week, it felt rather like having a springboard to jump from on the journey towards spring. Spring is my favourite season, and I love the feeling of entering it with a sense of renewal and to revelling in the newness it offers. So many reminders of growth as the rhubarb stretches out new stems and the snowdrops flourish in the borders. Mixing these wonderful visuals in with the joy of lengthened days makes so much seem possible. It even had me venturing into the garden with a pair of secateurs to begin the big tidy up.

When I realised how much the darker days of winter affected me, I made conscious efforts to find joy within the season itself. Hot chocolate, walks wrapped up in cosy knitwear, dedicated writing time, blankets, candles and films all played their role. And possibly the most helpful of all was visualising myself on the path towards the change of season. Much like the country road right now that path has muddy patches, but there is joy in the meanders it takes and to the way it alters under frost and snow and changes of light. And when it’s dark under a new moon I remember it is a moment in time. A time to realise that standing in the darkness can be a thing of its own. A time to pause and breathe before the waxing begins again. A time of anticipation.

I thought I would be including a seasonal poem this week, but this one comes to mind for me instead because there seems to be something coming up for me about standing in the moment and noticing…

My thanks to Black Bough Poetry for featuring this poem on the Silver Branch series.

I’VE COME TO THE DESERT TO SEE THE SAND

I know now not to try

to count the grains.

There will always be those missed

because they’re lodged in fingernails

or hiding their casual grit

in peoples’ stomachs;

grazed first by molars, then swallowed

before they could be tongued and spat out.

And that softness when you let it fall

through your fingers isn’t real –

there is hardness there.

Even the colour diminishes

when you separate the grains.

You would need a microscope

to bring the beauty back.

Instead of counting

I stand

lift my head

just look at that sand.

NO KISS ME QUICK HAT

This morning the air is cold and brings the scent of bark. The birds are singing to welcome in the day, and one short daffodil holds its trumpet proudly aloft on the front lawn.

Alt text says this week’s photo is two women smiling for a selfie and indeed it is. It is Kath and I in a corridor in a hotel in Blackpool the night before a yarn show.

I have decided that Blackpool will be one of those places that is ‘snapshots in time’ for me, and this week I have added a cabaret singer in a hotel to my ‘album’. Staying away for Kath’s work saw us in a hotel in Blackpool for a couple of nights and on Friday night we wandered down for the onsite entertainment. We had not planned to do this and had no knowledge of anything other than there was going to be something happening. When we got there, we got the treat of a person singing a wonderful range of familiar and well-loved songs. It was great to be in the audience, to sing along, to throw out a few ‘woos’ as requested, and take time to just be in the moment. Kath even got to sing a line from Oom-Pah-Pah from ‘Oliver’ into the offered mic which got a round of applause.

There’s something uplifting about watching someone share their talents, and to enjoying the company of others and we went to bed later than planned with big smiles on our faces. There was bingo too, so I now have a blue bingo dabber at the ready just in case the opportunity for a game arises again soon.

In my snapshot album for this northern seaside town I now have this week’s cabaret set alongside my already gathered shots of a horse and cart ride and a rollercoaster experience. I have yet to buy a Kiss me Quick Hat or visit the tower which will please my sister as I think she wants us to visit there together one day. I am predicting that when this happens we will have chips. It seems I eat chips each time I go to Blackpool and this time we chanced upon a chip shop so good we went there twice!

Of course we did the main event which was the yarn show. It always delights me how many good conversations can be had in a hall that has been transformed by yarn vendors. I love hearing people’s stories and wisdom, and thoroughly enjoyed talking to a wonderful eighty-year-old who was making 2026 their year to learn brioche knitting. We talked about how good it feels to dress in what makes you feel good, the joy of choosing funky new glasses, and how fun it is to keep learning new things.

Here’s a poem of mine that was published in Atrium this week which fits well with thought of seaside roller coaster rides…

ELECTRIC FENCES MOCK ME

Humpback bridges laugh

when I drive over them.

It’s there in every first fizz

of a sparkler being lit.

It’s in the carbon dioxide

of burst bubbles

rising from the rim

in glasses of champagne.

Rollercoasters tell me

time and again

I could have ridden the moment.

And that cartoon rabbit

is always handing me dynamite bundles.

It’s almost still there

right next to the gearstick

when I find reverse in car parks

on cold winter nights.

That tingle that rose

all the way up to my belly

when my hand brushed your knee

and the talking stopped.

UNDER A BLANKET

This morning the air is simply cold. I am unable to detect anything other than cold and fresh. The fresh feels revitalising.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a person with a scarf behind her face. I say are you sure you want me to try to decipher that description. I also say it is me sitting on my chair with the blanket I have been spending a lot of time under lately. The blanket is a hexi-flat blanket made by my lovely wife from leftover yarn from a range of different projects. It holds the colours and memories of socks and blankets and shawls and jumpers. And this week it has helped me to be cosy and weighted during a week that featured a persistent sore throat and general feelings of yuckiness.

Progress measures this week have included three distinct stages of biscuit thoughts:

Actively disliking the thought of a biscuit.
Not wanting a biscuit, thank you.
Wanting a biscuit even though I wouldn’t be able to taste it.

It has felt important to listen to my body this week. On Tuesday it was firm and persistent in telling me to go back to bed because Tuesday was definitely having a false start. It often told me that the blanket was a very good idea. And later in the week came the wonderful sign that I was shaking off the virus when, even though I couldn’t taste my food, I knew that having chocolate wheaty things with cold soya milk was exactly what I wanted for my breakfast. I hadn’t bought any for months before thinking about them this week. My body was telling me what I needed or perhaps it was me channelling my nan who always said, “a little of what you fancy does you good”.

It’s been a long time since I have needed painkillers for six days in a row and I did a lot of talking to myself about this during the week. Lots of words about needing to be patient and wait for things to pass. Reminders to myself to look for the joy in those glimmering moments when putting the washing on felt doable, when different drinks soothed my sore throat in different ways, and giving myself a gentle cheer of encouragement when I had the desire to pick up a book and read.

In amongst the resting to recuperate elements of my week, I also had the wonderful joy of being invited to be a guest on a podcast. I loved so much about this… the being asked, the feeling of being recognised as having something to say, the thinking about what we might talk about and then the absolute joy of being in the moment of the conversation. I was able to hear myself think out loud and there was laughter, and those are truly lovely things to be gifted when you share time with someone.

This week I hope you find plenty of shiny things that bring you joy, and I offer you a poem for Valentine’s Day:

Three Lies and One Truth About a Banana

after Henry Normal

It’s a telephone and someone is ringing for you.

It’s a smile.

It’s a sad mouth.

I do not love bananas, but I do love you.

SNOW MOON AND GRATITUDE

This morning the air carries the smell of grass, and a thread of geese sound in the sky.

Alt text says this week’s photo is a heart shaped object on the ground. I say it is ‘Lovely’, a photograph I took of a discarded elastic band found in the gutter near the end of my road in February 2022.

February this year started with a full moon, and it felt good to turn the calendars over to welcome in a new month before taking time to take a stroll under the Snow Moon. Cloud meant I could not see it, but I knew it was up there somewhere and I sent it a gentle howl!

On the last day of January I took a walk before going to the last session of January Writing Hours with Kim Moore and Clare Shaw. It felt good to clear my head in anticipation of the final session and to give a gentle nod to all the hours I had spent in their zoom room with my writing. It was important to me to mark the ending of this particular daily practice and to think what I am taking forward with me. As well as writing poems in my own style (it’s always right in there!) I have enjoyed experimenting with different forms and approaches in response to the poems and prompts provided. I have some lovely drafts to work on over the coming month and that feels wonderfully celebratory as does the recognition that carving out this daily space has given me the chance to write poems that were definitely waiting inside me.

During the week I also had the opportunity to read my poems at two fabulous online events. First of all, I took ‘Flamingo’ with me to the Stephen Paul Wren’s Molecules Unlimited Online for the bird themed evening. It was an absolute delight to be immersed in David Morley’s work as well as the poems from the guest poets. All the poems opened up my thinking and had me even more in awe of birds and the natural world. And on Saturday evening I took ‘I Can’t Send You Back Can I? and ‘My Sister Went to Live on the Moon’ to Louise Longson’s Last Saturday event where there was a wonderful celebration for the sixth birthday of Mark Anthony Owen’s iamb.

Those readings had me taking a little look back at where I had come from…me the poet who used to only want to read short poems at events in case the nerves were too much and my breath ran out. Today I do a happy poet dance for the keeping going, my belief in the words. I chuckle at the fact that I recorded a poem in one take this month (a trimmed beginning so I could breathe and be ready, and a trimmed ending, but one take nonetheless). I hold huge gratitude for the encouragement from others to say the words, and for the uplifting support I have had which includes the editing out of ticking clocks, invitations to read in welcoming zoom rooms, poets who share their knowledge and skills. And I am glad for all the people who find that my words resonate with them and take time to say nice things about what I have set down in the world.

Here’s a poem in celebration of yesterday’s full moon. It was written for the waxing to full moon I drove under on the way to and from work in 2022.

SNOW MOON

For a moment this morning I called you

Tiger Moon.

You let the clouds stripe you before first light.

On my way home you hung low over fields

then winked at me in my rear-view mirror.

When I asked your real name

you whispered Snow Moon

and the storm winds blew wild.